At 2:30am this morning I decided that we can not carry on like this and dropping Caitie down to a half day is not going to make ANY difference. So when we all got up at 6:30am I said to Andrew that we need to pull her out of preschool as it is not a positive experience for anyone.

Then we got a lovely phone call from Graham & Paula our very special friends on the other side of the world to encourage us that we are not failing as parents and to just pull her out. So that just confirmed that this was what we should do for her at this point, as there is no sense destroying the lovely little person she is just because she is 3 and that's when other kids go to preschool.

Before starting preschool, Caitlyn would go to bed at 7pm with little fuss, we would do 2 stories, 2 songs, say goodnight, turn the light off, close the door and would not hear from her till the morning. Now she cries when its bed time, won't settle, the door has to be wide open, the light must be on and she keeps waking up scared and not willing to go back to sleep.

We realise that for us to get back our happy, well adjusted sleeping child, we need to go back to the start and begin again. After Bible study today I am going to go up to the centre to thank them for helping us through this time and that for Caities benefit we need to pull her out.

At this stage we are not going to look at putting her back in till at least 3rd term if not till next year. Even though she is now 3 she is a young 3 and just not emotionally ready to be on her own and why should she, she has never had to be before and it is a lot to adjust to.

We will probably not be able to get her back into 'HeadStart' if she goes back in Term 3 as Wednesday's are their busiest day, but we need to believe that this is the right thing to do and that God will provide the right place at the right centre when she is ready. We do have a few options as we know different centres around the area that she knows people at, there is Michelle Bouveng, Robyn Murray, Kylie Alexander or Majella Cutts sister and where Tahlia goes. But we will just revisit that when we think she is ready to cope. In the mean till we are going to now concentrate on getting life back to normal and work on our toilet training, which is going quite well.